F I R S T
First Best Friend: sasha
First Crush: i don't remember. that was a long time ago.
First Real Girlfriend/Boyfriend: uhm. Jacob.
First Date: I guess you could count us going to the pburg mall as a date if you wanted to
First Kiss: Jacob
First Album/CD: i don't remember my first cd but i remember my first tape...it was some christmas schtick
First Piercing/Tattoo: ears
First True Love: Jacob
First Enemy: parents
First Time Dying My Hair: 8th grade? the end of 8th grade? 9th? some time around there
First Formal Dance: never
First Time Breaking A Bone: last year
First Time Getting Really Sick: I had the chicken pox when i was like six...i still have some scars

L A S T
Last Cuss Word Uttered: Fuck.
Last Compliment: "your hair is really cool color"
Last/Current boy/girlfriend: Jacob
Last Crush: Jacob
Last Time Driving: never
Last Big Car Ride: big car ride? i went about an hour away last weekend. but a couple weeks ago was a four hour drive to upstate new york
Last Kiss: this morning
Last Good Cry: i think wednesday counts as a good cry.
Last Movie Seen: that metallica movie
Last Phone Call: i answered the phone earlier and it was scott looking for my dad
Last Thing Written: this
Last Show Watched: law and order
Last Time Showered: last night
Last Shoes Worn: the only pair that i wear
Last Person That You Saw Naked Besides You: me?
Last CD Played: trivium
Last Item Bought: mints
Last Disappointment: failing another math quiz
Last Annoyance: drama in my school
Last Song You Heard: on wings of lead by as i lay dying
Last Piercing/Tattoo: ears

I AM: here
I WANT: to not be here
I HAVE: a wonderful boyfriend
I WISH: I could move out of my house
I MISS: Jacob
I FEAR: bees and losing my friends or Jacob
I HEAR: the tv and my parents
I SEARCH FOR: my medicine
I WONDER: why my contact is bothering me
I REGRET: trusting people
I LOVE: Jacob
I ACHE: when i sleep on my neck wrong. such as today. i need a neck massage
I ALWAYS: listen to music
I AM NOT: tired
I DANCE: never
I SING: when i have to
I CRY: rarely
I AM NOT ALWAYS: a nice person
I WRITE: on my hand
I WIN: nothing
I LOSE: guitar pics
I CONFUSE: myself and my family
I SHOULD: do my essay that was due earlier today

x. three things you are often complimented for: my hair, my clothing, and my eyes/eyeliner
x. you get embarrassed when: People stare at me or watch me eat
x. what upsets you: my parents
x. you keep a diary: i keep a journal that i write shit in when i feel like it or when i need to get my thoughts straight
x. you like to cook: i don't like to, but i can
x. you have a secret you have not shared with anyone: i wouldn't be too surprised. but none that i can think of
x. you set your watch a few minutes ahead: hell yeah my one is twenty minutes fast
x. you bite your fingernails: unfortunately
x. you believe in love: yes

Do You...?
take a shower everyday: yes
have a(any) crush(es): Jacob
think you've been in love: yes
want to get married: yes
have any tattoos/where?: not yet
piercings/where?: ears
get motion sickness: no
think you're a health freak: no
get along with your parents: Not really

WHEN YOU SEE THIS NAME YOU THINK Of
Ryan: jack?
Rob: bob
Drew: doesn't he play violin?
Stephanie: my orchestra conductor
Aaron: ...
Amy:....
Paul: karen's husband
Eve: ....
John: ...
Alex: roysdon
Justin: too many people named that
Ricky: ...

SCREEN NAMES: xxforeverxfallingxx/tottenville212
SIGN: virgo
NATURAL HAIR COLOR: brown
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: brown/red
EYE COLOR: brown

( FAVORITES )
NUMBER: 2, 3, 12, 13 27
COLOR: black, grey, purple, burgandy
DAY: wednesday
MONTH: don't know
SONG: quite a few
FOOD: subway
SEASON: Winter/spring
DRINK: mountain dew

( PREFERENCES )
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT? Both are nice.
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE? hot chocolate
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE? white
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE? vanilla

( IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU.... )
CRIED? no
HELPED SOMEONE? yes
BOUGHT SOMETHING? no
GONE TO THE MOVIES? no
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? no
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? yes
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? no
TALKED TO AN EX? no
MISSED AN EX? HAHAHA yeah right
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? no
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? not really
MISSED SOMEONE? yes
HUGGED SOMEONE? yes
KISSED SOMEONE? yes
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? no
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? no

::
(x) - you've done
(_) - you haven't done
::

(_) been drunk
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(_) kissed a member of the same sex
(_) crashed a friend's car
(_) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a Taxi
(x) been in love
(x) shoplifted
(_) been fired
(_) been in a fist fight
(_) snuck out of my parent's house
(_) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
(_) ever dated someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
(_) been arrested
(_) made out with a stranger
(_) stole something from my job
(_) celebrated new years in time square
(_) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(_) had a crush on a teacher
(_) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
(_) been to Europe
(_) skipped school
(_) slept with a co-worker
(X) cut myself on purpose
(_) been married
(_) gotten divorced
(_) had children
(_) seen someone die.
(_) been to Africa
(_) had a crush on one of my myspace friends
(_) Slapped someone I loved
(_) Driven over 400 miles to attend a show/festival/fetish ball
(_) Been to Canada
(_) Been to Mexico
(_) Been on a plane
(x) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
(_) Thrown up in a bar
(_) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
(_) Eaten Sushi
(x) Been snowboarding
(x) Met someone in person from the internet 
(_) had real feelings for someone you knew only online
(_) taken partially nude/nude photos of yourself
(_) been in an abusive relationship (emotionally abusive)
(_) been pregnant or got someone pregnant
(_) lost a child
(_) gone to college
(_) graduated college
(_) tried killing urself
(x) taken painkillers
(_) intentionally burned urself
(x) love someone or miss someone right now


Survey 2
What is your name?: Megan
Are you named after anyone?: yeah. some movie character
Would you name a child of yours after you?: no
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be: i'm assuming james, because that's my younger brother's name
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: I don't know
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do with your name constantly?: no
Your gender: female
Straight/Gay/Bi: straight
If not, do you want to be?: what?
Your age: 15
Age you wish you were: 18 at least
Your height: about 5'
Lefty/righty: Righty
Have any pets?: dog, parrot, iguana, tarantula
Whats your job?:don't have one. yet 
Piercings?: ears
Tattoos?: not yet
Do you speak another language?: yes
Do you have any secrets?: possibly. from certain people. but i don't think i have any secrets that no one knows
Do you hate yourself?: not really
Do you like your handwriting?: sometimes
Do you have any bad habits?: yes
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: "short"
Can you sing?: mhmm
Are you a loner?: i have friends. but i do like to be alone.
What are your .1 priorities in life?: to be able to do whatever i want, be who i want, and marry who i want
If you were another person, would you be friends with you? maybe
Are you a daredevil?: yes
Are you passive or agressive?: it depends on what the situation is
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: i'd be taller
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: yes
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: there are things i regret but i wouldn't change them if i had the chance because whatever's happened has contributed to how things are now and i'm happy now
Do you think life has been good so far?: good enough
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: to not trust people.
What do you like the most about your body?: my hair
And least?: didn't i answer this? i don't remember. i don't like my...i don't know. stomach i guess
Do you think you are good looking?: I don't think I'm gorgeous but i don't think i'm ugly
Are you confident: yes
What is the fictional character you are most like?: I don't know

×Do You...×
Smoke?: no
Do drugs?: no
Read the newspaper?: no
Pray?: no
Go to church?: no
Sleep with stuffed animals?: no
Take walks in the rain?: yes
Talk to people even though you hate them?: its unavoidable. i hate many people and they're hard to avoid
Drive?: no

×Would or Have You Ever?×
Like your voice?: wtf?
Hurt yourself?: I have. I don't anymore
Been out of the country?: no
Eaten something that made other people sick?: probably
In love?: yes, i have been in love. still am, as a matter of fact
skinny dipping?: i haven't but i get the feeling its only a matter of time (don't ask)
Had a medical emergency?: yes
Had surgery?: no. but my tonsils are swollen and if they get worse i'll have to have them removed
Ran away from home?: i have disappeared for a few hours
Played strip poker?: no
Gotten beaten up?: no
Beaten someone up?: no
Been picked on?: yes
Been on stage?: yes
Slept outdoors?: yes
Gone one day without food?: yes
Talked on the phone all night?: no
Slept all day?: when i'm sick
Killed someone?: no
Made out with a stranger?: no
Had sex with a stranger?: no
Thought you're going crazy?: yes
Been betrayed?: oh yeah
Had a dream that came true?: yes
Broken the law?: yes
Met a famous person?: no
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: no
On purpose?: ...
Stolen anything?: yes
Been on radio/tv?: yes
Had a nervous breakdown?: yes
Bungee jumped?: no
Had a dream that kept coming back?: yes

×Beliefs×
Belive in life on other planets?: yes
Miracles?: no
Astrology?: i suppose
Magic?: magick. there's a difference
God?: goddess
Satan?: no
Santa?: no
Ghosts?: yes
Luck?: not raelly
Love at first sight?: No.
Witches?: i guess
Easter bunny?: no
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: yes
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: no
Do you wish on stars?: yes

×Deep Theological Questions×
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: no
Do you think God has a gender?: yes
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: a few
Who are your closest friends?: a select few. they know who they are
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: Jacob
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: to not care what other people think
Your favourite inside joke?: there are a lot. fat kid seems to be my favorite at the time
Thing you're picked on most about?: being short
Who's your longest known friend?: nicole
Newest?: hmm. i guess it would be jake
Shyest?: hmm. I don't know
Funniest?: krista
Sweetest?: laura
Weirdest?: we're all weird
Smartest?: tasha
Ditziest?: none of us
Friends you miss being close to the most?: there are quite a few
Last person you talked to online?: thumper (matt)
Who do you talk to most online?: Jacob
Who are you on the phone with most?: no one
Who listens to your problems?: mostly amanda
Who do you fight most with?: I don't know
Who's the most outgoing?: jake or krista
Who's the best singer?: amanda

Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: no
Who's your second family? Jacob
Do you always feel understood?: no
Who's the loudest friend?: krista
Do you trust others easily?: absolutely not
Who's house were you last at?: Jacob
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: Jacob's
Do your friends know you?: I suppose
Friend that lives farthest away: rachel in upstate new york

×Love and All That×
Do you consider love a mistake?: no
What do you find romantic?: a couple things
Turn-on?: quite a few things
Turn-off?: arrogance, dirty, assholes, fakes, flirts
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: not realy
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: Jacob does and he's the only one that really matters
What is best about the opposite sex?: I don't know
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex: arrogance
Do you consider your significant other hot?: yes

×Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: wtf?
You wanted to kill?: a girl on my bus
That you laughed at?: krista
That laughed at you?: probably thumper
You went shopping with?: my mom
That broke your heart?: no one
To disappoint you?: me
To ask you out?: Jacob
To make you cry?: me
To brighten up your day?: thumper and alex during performance class
That you thought about?: Jacob
You saw a movie with?: Jacob

×Right This Moment...×
Are you going out? no
Will it be with your significant other?: ...
What are you wearing right now?: my pants that are drawn all over and ripped and a fender shirt and an atreyu hoodie
Body part you're touching right now: none
What are you worried about right now?: when i'm going to get my essay done
What book are you reading?: none
What's on your mousepad?: its just black
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: bored, worried, calm, happy, and tired
Are you bored?: yes
Are you tired?: yes. but i know i wont' sleep so there's no point in trying
Are you talking to anyone online?: yes
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: no
Are you lonely or content?: Content enough